Do Not Do This To Yourself| story

So a few weeks ago, I’m not entirely sure why, but I was overly obsessing about my pimples which were not even that much to be called acne by the way. It definitely had a lot to do with the fact that different people kept pointing it out to me ( as if I don’t take a look at myself in the mirror) . Without realizing it their opinions slowly crept in and I found myself doing different methods on my face .

Growing up I always knew of the great properties of garlic for removing pimples. I had also gotten results from it before. So here I was grating some garlic to get that juice out and I spread it against my cheek with the most pimples at the time. leaving it overnight I washed it out that next morning.  Yet again I did get success on some smaller pimples but there was this one that still bugged me. Later that same week I did another garlic treatment on that cheek and was shocked at what I woke up to.

For the first time in my life I had given myself a Garlic Burn. I didn’t even know garlic could burn you but yes it can. With all the things I was applying to my face I shouldn’t have been too surprised.

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The Point of all this is to remind myself to never let the voice of others cloud what I know to be right. I must have been a bit stressed, not drinking enough water. But even besides all that , if I had taken a spare moment to tell myself that I look beautiful today or these pimples are just temporary, I wouldn’t have taken on extreme measures to get rid of them quick. Everyone on this earth will get pimples unless they have some new and rare skin thingy.  It’s better to walk around with a few zits than to look like you might be cat woman by night.

 

 

 

Lessons Learned

  • Garlic Can Burn sensitive skin.
  • Oatmeal is a gentler alternative to acne/pimples.
  • Aloes are a gentler solution to pimples.
  • Pimples are Temporary.
  • Drink more water.
  • Are you stressed?
  • What they think don’t matter.
  • YOU LOOK FINE ,Geez.

 

Why the New Year Resolution is important.

I have heard and been guilty of not setting any new year resolutions because I “know” that I wouldn’t complete them anyway. Honestly I think that is stupid.

If there was a large jar to collect the amount of motivation that the world has during the new year period I am certain it would be a very very large jar. what better time to begin completing something than this time where your motivation and drive is at the all time high. Last year I opened up this blog in January as a new year resolution. I made many other resolutions but among the many that I didn’t complete, here I am today still writing in this blog.

People like myself often set multiple very large New years resolutions and to be honest I think we have the ability to complete them all whether they be large or small. The reason why I love setting goals for the new year is because like this blog, I am certain that if I just train myself to become more diligent that I will be able to cross off everything on my list and even if I haven’t done everything, something always gets done.

I know that it might be boring to read, me starting over and  over all the time. To me , I am trying hard to keep getting up after negative self talk.  Completing goals is easier said than done and I am not pleased with the amount of times I have seen Write a book on my new years list. However, the fact that it is one goal that always appears makes me feel like this is something that I really want to do.

This message is more for me than you: Don’t give up before you even started.

What are some goals that appear  on your resolution list every year?

1 Year of Locs.

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I have been bad at recording my Loc journey. For half of the journey I was second guessing, going back and forth and worrying if I should remove it or not. There were negative comments, uncertain gazes and also very pleasant compliments. I had wanted locs from my teenage years and was forever afraid. There were stories of airport security checking your locs, searching you for drugs. There was the constant reminder that I would never get a good job. I have no idea of how many of those things are true. All I know as I type this is that this is one thing I have always wanted to do and I have done.It is something I want to see the results of no matter how many times I think of cutting them and going back to what everyone considers to be normal.

I went against parents, and some close friends. I understand them. Life is hard when you go against the grain in any way.  I always quit on many things but even just a year of Locs has made me feel that so much more is possible if I stick to all those things I say I would do or want to do. There is so much more out there that I am too afraid to conquer including showing my mother that I have locs (no she doesn’t even know as yet)  Fears are real. 2016 was waist deep full of fears and there is much more ahead. If defeating just one can make you this strong imagine how it would feel to conquer the majority of them.

I have experimented with both palm rolling and interlocking. I have tried oils , creamy conditioners and most recently, black hair dye. I have never had locs before and I am taking care of it myself. Sure, I do not know what I am doing the majority of the time but this has been such a great learning experience. Holistically challenging. Some may only understand after experiencing it. With locs you are changing so much. What the world would accept as beautiful, you are challenging it. What you have grown up believing is beautiful is also challenged. You may drown in the negative opinions that everyone else will dip you under or you can rise against it and think of you and what you want. It is difficult. Especially growing up with chains of expectations that friends and family have set for you.

I cannot say do not give up on your journey. I do not know if I may give up on mine soon. However, if you are thinking of starting locs, I will tell you to try it out and try it just a little bit longer. That is the only way you will ever know isn’t it. If you do decide to try something else. So what. it’s your hair and your moment to experiment.

Whatever you choose…….

     Be Blissful

Book Thoughts: Heartless

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My rating: 5 of 5 stars

I cannot remember another ending that has traumatized me so. I loved reading this book so much that I am quite glad that it is a stand alone. I could not possibly have taken any more of that ending. Even my review feels at a loss for words. The worst part is that you  dread the ending from the very beginning.

Jest may be my new favorite book boyfriend.OMG he was just…so ..pure. Although I really cannot give away the number one spot which now holds Wolf from Marissa Meyer’s Scarlet from the lunar chronicles.so I will just have Jest sit here on number Two.I could not stand Catherine sometimes because I feel like if she had just decided earlier .I know it was a tough situation but goodness.

Marissa Meyer however is now hands down my new favorite author next to Rainbow Rowell. I’ve been trying to note the authors so that I can begin to see my type of book pleasure. I used to devour books without even knowing who wrote them.That has got to stop!

If you enjoyed Heartless by Marissa Meyer, let me know!

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Bitter*Sweet December

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It’s finally December. The dreaded yet sweet, cozy  and cheerful December. I wonder if my readers are tired as yet of me setting goals and not finishing them but here I am again with some more. I have, thankfully, already started on this one which is, applying to Universities.

I have always feared the idea of being rejected as a result of my ‘not- so- amazing’ grades and also my country which people tend to have never heard of before. Anyhow, I have applied to one thus far and unfortunately I did not research how to successfully write a statement of purpose. I am in the process of applying to a second university and I have researched and began writing this essay. If anyone would have tips on writing the Statement of Purpose and the Academic Objective essays, please comment below some of your tips and suggestions.

I do not know any close friends who may be able to help with this but if you are like me, one of the best ways that I know, is to go back to school and talk to one of those teachers who you liked. I plan to follow up on this in a few weeks as I continue to apply. Sure, I am still afraid of rejection but I am more tired of not trying hard enough for things that I want. I have no money and no idea how I will financially pay, but how about I get accepted first and see what happens after, right?

Thanks so much for reading and have a blissful and peaceful December.

October In A Nutshell.

October went by before my eyes, I couldn’t even reach out and touch it. It zoomed so quickly pass that I feel like I just lived a month that I wasn’t sure what happened to it.

Strangely enough there were quiet a good bit of things. Brother’s’ birthday, Work party. I was able to admire the growth of my niece. I discussed life’s frustrations with my sisters. I tried to cook lunch more for both me and boo. I missed baby’s first day at the beach, I became exhausted with my job, and tired of it. I experienced the shock and uselessness of watching a friend mourn her parent. I admired my under eye bags. I started looking into university applications and basically in the end although I sigh at the start of a new month, I still somehow have hope.

                                         ……….. HOPE.