1 Year of Locs.

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I have been bad at recording my Loc journey. For half of the journey I was second guessing, going back and forth and worrying if I should remove it or not. There were negative comments, uncertain gazes and also very pleasant compliments. I had wanted locs from my teenage years and was forever afraid. There were stories of airport security checking your locs, searching you for drugs. There was the constant reminder that I would never get a good job. I have no idea of how many of those things are true. All I know as I type this is that this is one thing I have always wanted to do and I have done.It is something I want to see the results of no matter how many times I think of cutting them and going back to what everyone considers to be normal.

I went against parents, and some close friends. I understand them. Life is hard when you go against the grain in any way.  I always quit on many things but even just a year of Locs has made me feel that so much more is possible if I stick to all those things I say I would do or want to do. There is so much more out there that I am too afraid to conquer including showing my mother that I have locs (no she doesn’t even know as yet)  Fears are real. 2016 was waist deep full of fears and there is much more ahead. If defeating just one can make you this strong imagine how it would feel to conquer the majority of them.

I have experimented with both palm rolling and interlocking. I have tried oils , creamy conditioners and most recently, black hair dye. I have never had locs before and I am taking care of it myself. Sure, I do not know what I am doing the majority of the time but this has been such a great learning experience. Holistically challenging. Some may only understand after experiencing it. With locs you are changing so much. What the world would accept as beautiful, you are challenging it. What you have grown up believing is beautiful is also challenged. You may drown in the negative opinions that everyone else will dip you under or you can rise against it and think of you and what you want. It is difficult. Especially growing up with chains of expectations that friends and family have set for you.

I cannot say do not give up on your journey. I do not know if I may give up on mine soon. However, if you are thinking of starting locs, I will tell you to try it out and try it just a little bit longer. That is the only way you will ever know isn’t it. If you do decide to try something else. So what. it’s your hair and your moment to experiment.

Whatever you choose…….

     Be Blissful

Currently Watching: Gilmore Girls

Confession: I am one to religiously follow certain Youtubers. Especially Book Tubers

Some feel like my soul sisters that I have never met.One of my many favorite book tubers called Bookables really loves Gilmore girls.Now I’ve never watched Gilmore girls and I kept wondering what is this thing she keeps talking about……. NOW I know. Yes. I most definitely  binge watched season one within a few weeks and sometimes going all towards 2 am in the morning. SIGH.

DOn’t You Dare Judge ME.

 The greatest time waster is finding a new show/series (Is there a difference? I’ll google it). As depressing as it is to lose time I can’t help but crave another episode every time one is over.The issues in this show is so darn relate able and CUTE! Perfect Holiday type, cup of tea, cozy bed kind of show! I can’t wait to catch up, I am like a million seasons late in the circle.

Do you like Gilmore girls? Are you just starting or have you already caught up? LEt me know! I wish Luke and Laurali would just admit their love already! What are you waiting for, tell me everything you think in the comments! no spoilers though, I am on the first episode of season 2. I really hope Dean and Rori don’t break up again but do I really like Dean?? I am not so sure.

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Book Thoughts: Heartless

HeartlessHeartless by Marissa Meyer

My rating: 5 of 5 stars

I cannot remember another ending that has traumatized me so. I loved reading this book so much that I am quite glad that it is a stand alone. I could not possibly have taken any more of that ending. Even my review feels at a loss for words. The worst part is that you  dread the ending from the very beginning.

Jest may be my new favorite book boyfriend.OMG he was just…so ..pure. Although I really cannot give away the number one spot which now holds Wolf from Marissa Meyer’s Scarlet from the lunar chronicles.so I will just have Jest sit here on number Two.I could not stand Catherine sometimes because I feel like if she had just decided earlier .I know it was a tough situation but goodness.

Marissa Meyer however is now hands down my new favorite author next to Rainbow Rowell. I’ve been trying to note the authors so that I can begin to see my type of book pleasure. I used to devour books without even knowing who wrote them.That has got to stop!

If you enjoyed Heartless by Marissa Meyer, let me know!

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Bitter*Sweet December

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It’s finally December. The dreaded yet sweet, cozy  and cheerful December. I wonder if my readers are tired as yet of me setting goals and not finishing them but here I am again with some more. I have, thankfully, already started on this one which is, applying to Universities.

I have always feared the idea of being rejected as a result of my ‘not- so- amazing’ grades and also my country which people tend to have never heard of before. Anyhow, I have applied to one thus far and unfortunately I did not research how to successfully write a statement of purpose. I am in the process of applying to a second university and I have researched and began writing this essay. If anyone would have tips on writing the Statement of Purpose and the Academic Objective essays, please comment below some of your tips and suggestions.

I do not know any close friends who may be able to help with this but if you are like me, one of the best ways that I know, is to go back to school and talk to one of those teachers who you liked. I plan to follow up on this in a few weeks as I continue to apply. Sure, I am still afraid of rejection but I am more tired of not trying hard enough for things that I want. I have no money and no idea how I will financially pay, but how about I get accepted first and see what happens after, right?

Thanks so much for reading and have a blissful and peaceful December.