Ever heard of NaNoWrimo? I have attempted twice and never passed two weeks. Here I am again though.. because I feel like I have wanted to write for so long that it never stops nagging me. I can never just let this dream die because it’s so strongly embedded into my heart. I am going to try again. Not NaNoWrimo but the concept of it. Their word count is 1667 per day for 30 days. I hesitate to do this because I have failed twice and so near the beginning. I feel like I will be a laughing stock if I post this and stop soon after. Regardless, I want to try again before NaNoWrimo comes . I feel like it’s something I need to do so that I can live knowing I CAN.
I have been “day dream “planning for a few months now about this one idea I had. Yet last night after a call from my mom… I hit the actual written planning immediately. I had just told her that I was getting my period and she said “I think I’m finally done with that now.”
I haven’t seen her since, maybe about 6 years old? I try not to keep count. Now ..she is going through Menopause? It made me hate time, but more so, hate myself for constantly wasting it. Life has been begging me to improve my skills for years and now it’s so late in the game. I have no income and opportunities are still loading because I am here not doing anything to bring them to me.
Anyway, I am not sure how long planning is supposed to last but I have started and hope to finish during this long Easter Holiday we have here.
This is the template I am using for my character designs , just one I found on Pinterest. My writing experience? I graduated from Pinterest. I did do literature in community college but… hopefully some of that stayed in me somewhere.
No matter how it turns out, I want to know I can. I want to do what I say I will do. I want to open a door that will lead me straight to the arms of my mother who I don’t even know what she smells like, or the taste of her cooking.
She said she would, and so she did.
A quote I found wile scrolling endlessly on Instagram.